Start Strong: Do This Every Morning to Get Out of Bed, Beat Anxiety, and Feel Incredible All Day

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Noodle is laying with me. And today I am teaching you a technique that changed my entire life. If you have ever struggled with getting out of bed, if you wake up and you immediately feel dread or you feel like something's wrong or your thoughts are just overwhelming you, what I'm going to teach you today and share with you will change your life immediately. And what are we going to talk about? We're going to talk about this technique that my therapist, the extraordinary Anne Daven, taught me during a period where I was going through a really, really hard time and in fact, things were so difficult that I was having trouble getting out of bed. And that may surprise you if you're a new listener. By the way, if you're a new listener, welcome to the Mel Robbins podcast family. I think it's super cool that you're choosing to listen to something that can help you change your life and learning how to get out of bed on those days where life feels hard or you're overwhelmed or like me, you have this pounding sense of dread in your body.

 

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It kind of weighs you down like a gravity blanket and you just want to stay in bed. It's kind of interesting, isn't it? How hard it can be to get out of bed some mornings. I've certainly been there and what I didn't know is that all of that dread that I was feeling every morning, all of the overwhelm, it actually traced all the way back to an experience that I had had in childhood. And we're going to talk about that in a minute, but I got to share something with you. I have never been the kind of person that likes to get out of bed. I mean, let's just be honest with each other. For anybody that can spring out of bed when the alarm rings, you're weirdo for the rest of us, normal people who actually wake up and we're sort of like, ah, can't I just lay here?

 

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Why is it so hard to get out of bed? How about hitting that snooze button again and drifting back to sleep in my cozy sheets? That's the kind of person that I've always been. And so if that's you somebody that you love, what you're going to learn today is going to blow your mind. You're not only going to learn this technique called slithering, you're going to hear it explained by my therapist and Devin. She is also going to walk you through why this works as what's called a somatic practice. She's going to teach you about the deep origins of the stored tension in your body and why you continue to wake up in the morning and feel this sense of dread or something's wrong or your thoughts are spinning. This isn't based on just what's happening in your life right now. This is likely something that you've experienced for a long time in your life.

 

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And here's the good news. Using this technique, you can move it out of your body. And yeah, you may have a lot going on, but you can learn how to wake up and not feel that sense of dread. You can learn how to change it so that you wake up in the morning no matter what's going on, you actually wake up and you feel freedom in your body. It is the coolest thing in the world. I'm going to teach it to you today. I'm so excited that you're here. In fact, I'm going to sit up, get the pillow in place, I think nudes, get the eye mask off and settle in. Oh, and you know what I don't have is I don't have my glasses, 

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Forget about doing resistance training. This is pushing through something at a whole different level. And once I feel that sensation of dread, of course what happens then bing, it triggers my mind to start spinning and I start to scan ahead. And even though I'm a very positive person, one of the things that I've been learning about life is that our brains tend to default on the negative. So what is it that I immediately start thinking about, oh, the thing I did wrong yesterday, the things I have to do today that I'm not going to get to or that I'm nervous about the meeting at work that I'm not prepared for the fact that the kids have all this stuff going on, the fact that I haven't exercised in four days and now I'm kind of beating myself up, or that maybe I stayed up a little bit too late and watched yet one more episode of that series instead of going to bed.

 

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And so the very first thing I feel is heaviness. The very first thoughts aren't like, oh, let's get out of bed. I'm so grateful I have another day. It's more like, ugh. Just like, ugh, that's what I'm working with. It doesn't matter if I'm on vacation, it doesn't matter if I'm in my house. It doesn't matter if I'm traveling for work. It doesn't matter where I am. That is what I feel. And what I've come to learn is that's the way most of us feel. That there's something about going from a state of peace and rest to waking up and having to face the day. And if you're somebody who doesn't sleep well at night, holy smokes, let's just add on top that kind of disappointment, that yet again, you didn't get another good night's sleep. So you're not waking up rested, you're waking up feeling behind.

 

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And so that's the background here. And if you're somebody who just brings out bed like God bless you, but the rest of us kind of hate you right now because that's not the normal feeling for a lot of us. But I'm here to tell you, by the time you're done listening, you are going to not only understand why you feel that dread and why your thoughts can be really negative and why it can be hard to push yourself out of bed and start the day even better than understanding it. You're going to know exactly what to do on those mornings when you feel it. And I will tell you based on personal experience using this technique called slithering has changed my flippant life because it has changed what my body feels first thing in the morning, and it has given me this simple, seemingly ridiculous thing to do to help me on those mornings where it truly is hard to get out of bed.

 

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So I want to go back in time three or four years and explain what was happening when I was talking to my therapist, the extraordinary Ann Davin about all of the challenges I was facing. And I'm not going to belabor it because then it's going to get too damn depressing. But we were in the middle of massive life change. So many of you, our family had moved and we moved from Boston where we had lived for 26 years up to this tiny little town in southern Vermont. And at the time, we were living with my mother-in-law. Now, I love my mother-in-law, but you know when you are sleeping at your mother-in-law's house, you're not in your own bed, you are in somebody else's house. And I was sleeping in the bunk room of my mother-in-law's house in southern Vermont, and we're in the middle of this big move.

 

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I have no friends. I have lost my dream job, which at the time was being a daytime talk show host. And I just didn't know what I was going to do with my life. I felt like I had made a huge mistake by moving to this tiny town and uprooting our whole life. And on top of all of that, I'm waking up in the middle of the desolate winter months in a bunk room in my mother-in-law's house. And lemme tell you, I would wake up every morning and it wasn't just the elephant on my chest, it was like, I don't even want to face the nightmare my life has become. I don't want to get out of bed if I just roll over. Have you ever had a morning where you're like, okay, if I just hit the snooze button and then I drift back to sleep, maybe I will wake up in a totally different life.

 

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Maybe this is just some sort of figment of my imagination, this life of mine, this used to happen to me in law school all the time. I would have this fantasy that as I would drift back to sleep, I would wake up and suddenly I wouldn't be in law school anymore. I'd be 10 years ahead. I would be happy. I would've known what I was doing with my life. I'd have it figured out. And then of course I'd drift back to sleep. The alarm would ring, I'd wake back up, I'd be like, oh my God, this again. And now I'm late for class anyway, I could talk for hours about how hard it has been for me to get out of bed and how awful it is to wake up. And the first thought that you have is that you've done something wrong or that someone's mad at you or that the day is just so overwhelming you don't know how you're going to get through it.

 

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That's not that empowering, that doesn't feel good. And so I'm going through this really challenging period where I'm like, I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I'm so stuck. I don't feel like we made the right decision. I don't think I'm going to make it. And I'm sobbing to Anne on the phone and I'm talking about how I just am having such a hard time getting out of bed. And Anne says, Mel, I want you to try something called slithering. So Ann and I spend one of our sessions talking all about the sensation. And that's why I asked you to think about what do you feel in your body first thing in the morning? Is it heaviness? Is it dread? Is it excitement? Is it like an on edge feeling? You don't quite know what you're going to wake up to.

 

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And so as we started to unpack the sensation and the experience of waking up, she started asking me these questions. When do you remember this first starting? And I'm like, I have no idea. She's like, what about when you were in law school? Was it there? I'm like in law school. What about college? Yep, absolutely. What about high school? Yeah, yeah. As a matter of fact, I had a really hard time getting out of bed in high school. I always felt this sensation something was wrong. And we went all the way back in our conversation to this moment that I remembered where I'm going to not go deep into the story. I don't want things to get too heavy. I mean, it's already heavy to get out of bed. But we went all the way back to this experience that I had where I was in fourth grade and my family was away at this ski trip with a bunch of other families and all the kids were sleeping in this big bunk room.

 

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And I remember waking up in the middle of the night, here I am a fourth grader and there is an older kid on top of me and they're doing something to me. And it was a really, I don't know what the right word is, weird and upsetting and confusing situation because it's like on one hand I was really scared it was pitch dark and I didn't know what was happening. But on the other hand, and this may sound a little weird, it felt like okay, kind of good. I was so confused. I was not as a fourth grader able to process what was going on my first ever sexual experience in that setting, being woken up. And I remember just rolling over on my side into this ball shape and this older kid climbed out and went back and I looked over and in the bottom bunk next to me was my little brother.

 

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And I remember thinking, I need to keep really quiet so that this person doesn't do that to him. I knew something was wrong. But as I reflect back on it, it's not that the first experience was terror or fear, it was more confusion and this deep sense that this was really bad. But again, my fourth grade little brain, I didn't know what was happening. I didn't know how to process this in a healthy way. And so that next morning when I woke up, what do you think I felt in my body? Heaviness, dread. I felt like I had done something wrong and I laid in that bed and pulled the covers over me and just hid there until all the kids had left because I just sensed that I had done something wrong. And one of the things that I've learned talking to the extraordinary experts that we've had on this podcast that you and I are together learning from is that when you're really little, there's this flaw, I'm going to call it a flaw.

 

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There's a flaw in human design called attribution. I learned this from the amazing psychiatrist at Stanford, Dr. Paul Conti, that when you're little and bad things happen or the adults around you are super mad or frustrated or they're not around at all, a little kid does not have the ability to attribute other people's bad behavior to other people. There's a flaw in the human design that makes little kids attribute other people's bad behavior to a flaw on you. And so I actually thought this was my fault. I thought something was wrong. And I thought if I tell anybody, I am going to get in a lot of trouble even though I didn't do anything, I was clearly a victim. And I'll just state for the record also my personal opinion about that other kid as if that other kid is doing something like that to a kid, then clearly somebody is doing that to him.

 

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And so I know that now, but in that moment in my body, my body absorbed that experience. And I'm going to tell you something, what I've learned over and over from all these experts that you and I talked to on this podcast and from my own deep experience in therapy and all kinds of different modalities and diving deep into trauma, that there are things that happen to you when you were little or in your lifetime. And what I am learning over and over is that it's actually stored as a sensation in your body. And if it is your default to wake up and have negative thoughts or it's your default to wake up and feel that heaviness the way that I do, it might not be something as scary as what happened to me. But it could just be that you had a parent or a caregiver that you never knew which version of them you were going to get in the morning.

 

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Like is mom or dad going to be in a good mood? They're going to be in a bad mood. Are we going to have food today or are we not going to have food today? Am I going to have a good day at school or am I going to get bullied like I normally do? Am I going to be able to do what I need to do in this classroom or am I going to sit there because I have a learning disability that nobody's figured out? And so I feel like the dummy in the classroom and I'm constantly in trouble. And all of these experiences create sensations in your body where you're bracing or you are freezing or you're in fight or flight. And so I didn't know any of this. I just felt like there was something wrong with me because I couldn't get out of bed in the morning.

 

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Why is it if I have an okay life, I'm not happy when I get out of bed. I understand cortisol drops and all this other stuff, but why does it have to feel so heavy? And so I'm having this conversation with my amazing therapist, Ann. I'm crying like crazy, and we trace it all the way back. And now it makes perfect sense. Of course, if I have that kind of experience that the act of waking up gets married with the experience and that sensation got stuck in my body. That's all that was happening. And that's why I'm so excited for you to learn about this because using this technique, I have been able to really move this heaviness out of my body. I've been able to get the elephant off my chest, and I have also been able to nurture and support myself in those mornings where the thoughts start spinning and it's super negative.

 

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And I guarantee you, if you try this, this will help you and it's going to help people that you love. And so I really want you to share this with everybody that you care about because you have no idea how somebody else feels when they wake up. 

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And I want you to think about where is it in your body? It might be in your ankles, it might be on your back, it might be up in your head, it could be anywhere in your body that you feel this sensation. And then Anne said to me, I am going to teach you Mel, how to move this thing out of your body. And she said, I don't want you to push yourself out of bed. That's what I was trying to do. I was trying to force myself through the heaviness. She said, we're going to do the opposite. We're going to move with the heaviness. I'm like, what do you mean? Am I just going to melt into the bed? That's what it feels like. I'm supposed to just disintegrate into the sheets. It's so heavy. She's like, oh, no, no, no, no. You are going to slither out of bed.

 

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You're going to move with the heaviness smell and you are going to slither and slide one foot out of that bed and then you're going to slither and slide the other foot and then you're going to off the bed. And then I'm like, well, what am I going to do once I roll out? Oh, you're going to be on the ground and you're going to move around with this heaviness. And I'm like, that sounds odd. And Anne has this amazing way of being so compelling that I tried it and I'm going to walk you through it. It is unbelievable how this thing works. So what I wanted to do to make sure that you really understood this is I reached out to Anne and I said, Hey Anne, would you be willing to just send me a voice memo to really help me explain this technique and how you came up with this and why this works?

 

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And so I'm absolutely honored to be able to introduce you to my therapist, Ann Devin, and to have you get to experience her wisdom as she is going to explain to you exactly what slithering is. Anne is extraordinary. She has been a psychologist for over 30 years. She has a PhD in depth psychology, a master's in clinical psychology. All of her work focuses on the unconscious mind and how it impacts the human experience. And I have had the honor of working with Anne for over four years now and she's changed me from the inside out. And I also just want to take a moment and thank you, Anne, because what you're going to share today is truly going to help people's lives. I just know it. So thank you. And so here's a clip that she recorded for you to explain what slithering is.

 

Anne Devin (21:37):

Slithering isn't a formal technique that is taught. You won't find it in someone's lecture or coursebook. It's an example of somatic inquiry. The beauty of somatic inquiry is that it bypasses trying to make sense of what we are feeling. Rather we let the body speak its mind through movement. Sometimes it's better to feel our way through rather than try to

 

Mel Robbins (22:00):

Figure our way out our way. I want to make sure you heard that last line that Anne said that sometimes it is better for you to feel your way through a sensation rather than trying to figure your way out of it. And let me tell you something, I've spent my entire lifetime trying to figure out how to deal with the heaviness and the negativity and the overwhelm that I feel when I wake up talking about it hasn't worked. Pushing through it has gotten me out of bed, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. But it doesn't remove that feeling every morning. So I would wake up with that feeling 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, and push my way out of it. But the next morning it's there again, what Anne was teaching me and what she's offering in this type of, as she called it 

Anne Devin (23:27):

Our work at the time was focused on healing and early childhood trauma associated with waking up in the morning. As that victimized child, you had to wake up and get out of bed and confront the reality of what had just happened to you the night before without the inner or outer resources to do so. The dread that you felt upon waking as an adult was a somatic residue of this unresolved trauma.

 

Mel Robbins (23:53):

Is she not brilliant? And I want to be sure that you're tracking because it took me a little while to truly get this, that it's important to talk about your feelings. It's important to talk about what happened, but there's a deeper way to heal the experiences in your life that got stored in your body, whether it's experiences of racism or bias or it's trauma or it's just chaos in your family or uncertainty. Ironically for me, another experience that we ended up linking to this one is that there was a friend of mine that was killed in a drunk driving accident when I was in high school and I was sound asleep when the accident happened. And my mom came into the bedroom and I woke up in her arms to her crying and she was explaining that this family friend that the son had died, that was another experience of being asleep and then waking up to really scary news. And so these experiences, you don't just shrug 'em off, they stay with you. And the opportunity here in learning how to move the sensation out of your body is a way that you can heal this. And it goes way beyond just waking up and feeling better and waking up and not having the dread.

 

Anne Devin (25:23):

My impulse to suggest this to you, Mel, to slither came from the dynamic interplay of my intuitive witnessing of your unconscious as it expressed itself in the feeling of dread each morning when you woke up, the dread for you caused you to freeze, to be immobilized, unable to move into your day with a sense of safety and wellbeing.

 

Mel Robbins (25:46):

It took me a while to truly grasp what Anne was teaching me. And so I want to try to simplify this and bottom line it for you. You have all of these experiences that have happened in your life that are now stored in your subconscious mind and in the sensations in your body. You don't ever really get rid of it until you truly process it. And Anne was linking up that all of these experiences were just locked in my body with nowhere to go. And so the dread that I was feeling, the overwhelm, the negative thoughts, the sense that something was wrong, these are things that were happening on the surface that told Anne that there was something much deeper going on. There was a stuck sensation or experience that needed to be moved out of my body. And her strategy was instead of trying to push through it and soldier forward and just keep moving on, Mel, it's time to move toward it to join with it and to truly push it out of your body.

 

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And that's exactly what you're going to learn how to do today. And so I want to explain in detail the process of slithering right now and I'm going to break the whole thing down. And then we're going to bring Anne back and Anne is going to explain why this works. And then a little later she's also going to walk you through an exercise with a couple questions so you can start to try out this process yourself. Now, giant disclaimer, I'm not a therapist. I am just a person that has had a lot of screwed up. Things happen and I'm doing my best to heal them and I'm sharing what worked for me. And Anne is not your therapist. This is a resource and a suggestion that is there for you to try. And for me, this was life-changing and I'm pretty sure if you lean into what she's saying and offering to you, it'll be pretty life-changing for you and the people that you love too.

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And when I first started doing this, I would literally land by the time I slithered and slang out of bed, I would just lay on my stomach on the floor. And I really took Anne's words to heart that instead of truly fighting the heaviness, embrace it, let the heaviness just consume you and allow it to have you roll out of bed. And then I would just kind of start to move and I'm writhing around on the floor just literally bending my knees and kind knees, almost like if you're in an exercise class and they're asking you to just move your body in whatever way, and all you're doing is you're kind breaking up the heaviness when you're laying in bed. What I noticed is that it just kind of sits there, but when you start to move around and then I would just roll around and Anne said to me, Mel, just lay on the floor and kind of twist and turn and move your body in whatever shape you want until you start to feel that break apart.

 

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And so I'm literally laying on the floor right now and I'm twisting. And because so much of what's stored in your body first comes to you as a sensation, you feel on edge or you feel heavy or you feel like something's up, that sensation is what we're moving through. And for the first couple of mornings, I would literally lay here on the floor as pathetic as it sounds for like a minute or two. And then at some point what Anne was saying is that you'll start to feel the heaviness break apart. And the slow movement is what starts to break apart the sensation that had been pinning you in bed. And as you move your body and you probably hear me on the floor, strange things start to happen. Your mind now is like, what are you doing? And I'm no longer thinking about the day because I'm thinking about how I'm on this floor and I want the feeling to get out of my body.

 

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And slowly what starts to happen is that frozen kind of dreads starts to break apart based on your own movement. And in the beginning I would be on the floor in doing this ridiculous snake slither for a couple minutes and then all of a sudden you feel freed from it. You're not done yet, you're not done yet. What you're going to feel is this ability to actually either sit up or roll over and you're not going to stand up yet. That's not allowed yet because the point is to move through this. And Ann told me to get on all fours and crawl across the floor to the bathroom. I'll tell you what I thought when she explained this to me. Are you kidding me? It's really gotten that bad that I am going to crawl across the floor, but holy cow does it do wonders.

 

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And so I'm going to walk you through why this works. You're going to roll and slither out of bed like a snake. You're going to hit the floor and get your whole body on the floor. Then you're going to move your body around in whatever motion you want in a slow way, and you'll start to notice the feeling and sensation breaking apart. And when you feel ready, which for me in the beginning was like a couple minutes of laying on the floor, slithering around, shaking this feeling up, then you're going to roll onto all fours and you're going to crawl toward the bathroom. So Anne said you stay on the ground for as long as it takes to start to feel it's breaking up, and then eventually you're going to roll off the ground and onto all fours, which feels ridiculous. Honestly. I remember when I was learning this technique and I got up that first morning on my all fours and I'm thinking, am I really going to crawl to the bathroom?

 

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Now, keep in mind at this point I'm sleeping in a bunk room and the bathroom is down the hall. So you get on all fours and the point is you're going to slowly start to, and you're going to hear the rug literally like a dog or a cat. You're just going to crawl toward the bathroom, which for me is not only hard on the knees, but it means I'm risking being seen by my children. Or even worse, my mother-in-law just crawl to the bathroom. And I'll tell you what though, from the very first time I tried this, by the time I got to the bathroom, all that heaviness was gone and something magical replaced it. This sense of freedom. By the time I got to the bathroom that I wanted to stand up, I wanted to face the day I had moved with and through the heaviness that it was no longer in me and I felt something else which was empowerment.

 

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And it seems ridiculous that crawling across the floor or slithering out of the bed and onto the floor like a snake and moving through it would have this impact. But I did this every single morning for six weeks, and I kid you not slithering not only got me out of bed on those mornings, it did something way more miraculous. See what Anne was teaching me? And what you're now learning about is something called a somatic technique. Somatic is a fancy word that means of the body. There are experiences that you have in life that you remember in your subconscious mind, but it's also remembered in the body. And remember earlier how we were talking about the fact that I could talk all I wanted about the things that had happened to me and how I feel, but it wasn't getting rid of the feeling in the body. In order to move trauma through your body or to get rid of these negative and heavy sensations, you got to drop from the neck down and process it in the body. And that's exactly what Anne was guiding me in doing when she taught me how to slither. I wanted you to have the benefit of hearing Anne explain exactly why she taught me this technique and how it was working to break apart all the frozen and stuck experiences in my body and set me free. Let's take a listen.

 

Anne Devin (35:33):

The best way to work with a symptom, a somatic symptom like this, is to join with it, turn towards it, amplify it When you did so the residue shifted from frozen to thawing to fluidity. Your nervous system shifted from a state of distress to neutral and then to calm. I prompted you to join with a feeling of dread. And imagine if it could move. How would it move? Would it slither? Let your body slither out of bed onto the floor. Move slowly. Notice how the dread wants to move. Let the dread lead the movement. Slithering is the tool you use to transform the trauma residue. Your body now is more likely to associate a sense of wellbeing and safety when awakening to a new day and when it doesn't, you know how to shift that feeling.

 

Mel Robbins (36:24):

So I know you're going to have a lot of questions. Let me just cover some of the ones I get all the time. You're probably thinking, when do I use this? Well, I use this technique anytime there's a morning where I just wake up and it just feels like too much to bear. Pull out the slither and you're going to feel better. And by the way, you can also use this on the couch. So if you're sitting on the couch and you feel that heaviness hit and you can't seem to get yourself off the couch, just slide right off, slither on the floor, crawl to the doorway of that room. And trust me, you will break apart that feeling. It's pretty unreal how this works. Another question that you may have is related to what if you have a really hard time actually feeling what you're feeling and dropping into your body?

 

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I can relate to this, especially since I've spent decades running away from this heaviness and this sensation. And so it can be really scary, but here's what I have found. The second that you literally just start small, just slide your leg down and out underneath the sheets and gravity kind of takes over. And what you'll find if you're willing to just try this, is that you do have more power than you think. The reason why these sensations are so scary is because you don't know what to do with them. And they've been there a long time. And so part of my fear was, is this really what my life is? Is this what every morning is going to be? Because this is what it's always felt like. And you'll quickly realize as you're writhing around on the ground and rolling around and then you roll up to your hands and your knees, whoa, this feeling is shifting.

 

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It's weird, but it's shifting. And the more that you do this, the more comfortable you're going to become. And look, I was really scared at this point in my life. I didn't want to feel this way. I didn't want to wake up on edge and so anxious. And the thing that shocked me is simply trying. This made me feel so empowered. It made me feel like these sensations were no longer going to rule my life and they don't. Another thing that comes up a lot, what if you're in a bed that's really high up or you don't want to risk falling out of the, because it's high on the floor, no problem. Just get the leg out first and just kind of inch so that you're sort of laying there and the leg is straight and then you get the other leg out and you can go from a half sit to a lying down to using your arm.

 

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It's okay. There's no right way to do this. Just get yourself eventually on the floor so that you're laying down on the floor. That's the important part. And then the feeling your whole body on the floor and starting to move and roll around that starts to shake up this heaviness. It's super cool. What if you have a dog? I mean, Mr. Noodle is still sitting here on the bed sleeping next to me. He does not care if I'm slithering or crawling because he had a late night out hunting chipmunks. Okay, so he's just sleeping a dog. Fantastic. Because what happens is as you're on the floor, if your dog comes over and starts licking you and then they follow you and you're crawling down the floor and they're like, what are you doing? What are you doing? You don't feel so alone. It actually kind of makes you laugh a little.

 

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And the laughter and the added kind of fun of an animal being there shakes up all this sensation even faster. At least that's what I found when my dog's homie and Yolo would come and crawl along with me to the bathroom. 

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You can climb into bed and be like, let's slither out of bed today. Let's take that heaviness that you feel, which validates it, by the way. And let's use our bodies to move through it and shake it up and we're going to crawl together. And when you feel ready, and this is the most important part that Anne would say to me, when you feel ready, you can go from crawling to standing up. And I said that I used this for six weeks straight and it just broke apart everything that was in my body, but it only took me about a week or two to get to the point where I could crawl three or four crawl steps. I don't even know what the technical word is for it when you're on your hands and knees. And I was ready. I was ready to stand up and walk down the hall to the bathroom.

 

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And honestly, that was a huge victory. The fact that I was ready eight crawls before I had been, the week before was evidence that this was working. And I was slowly but surely chipping away at this tar sensation and this heaviness that had held me hostage so long and it kept progressing like this, that eventually all I needed to do was roll on the floor and then I was standing up and eventually all I needed to do was put a leg out and did I need to slide down? Not really. As I was sliding, I'm like, oh, I feel free. I can do it. And so